"You can never go back to yesterday, or ever reach tomorrow."

I think some days I'd like to go back to the days of oblivion, but oblivion is no way to live-at least not today, because today I will make a difference. Every day you make a difference, for better or worse. For yourself, or someone else...

Do you ever hold it inside, not say the things you need to and then it all comes bursting out of you? You spill your guts out, and cry. You just keep talking and talking. It all comes out. More than you should have said. When your alone again, you feel - empty. Empty inside, an empty bottle which is all poured out. Often you've poured it all out, to the wrong ears. Ones that weren't listening, or understanding. Or a heart that is not close enough to your own to know your deepest secrets.

Then sometimes a person is too young to here what's being said. They are open ears open eyes and open hearts. When your growing up, just as I discovered last year, you discover the world isn't full of rainbows. We all deal in different ways, some people close off, express it through art, wright poems or stories, or even songs. Some cry themselves to sleep at night, some change there wardrobe or group of friends I don't know if its a cry for help or a coping mechanism. But somehow we all gotta deal. We all need someone to lean on, but sometimes we lean too heavily...

Then there is the other end of the spectrum. The times you have a conversation with someone that at the end of the day, didn't have any purpose or go anywhere. Its Usually between two friends who really need to talk but instead, "how are you" "fine". Just fine....